Hey guys! It's Friday! TGIF! Well, so fast days has past by..

Well anyway, been so stressful this few days with family financial issues here and there.. 

With boyfriend's family issue and mine family issue..

On Wednesday after back from work, out of sudden my mum says PAYU only left with $2. I was like "what??!!" Then i asked if my brother has help to top up, then she says that, that day my brother has already top up and just that day my mum also just top up.. 

I was so stressful. I let it out my feelings to boyfriend when he came home... I was crying out loud.. Seriously so stressful if everything at home here and there is not enough.. Is not that i didn't give my mum money each time when my salary comes in... 

Breakdown of money:

$100 - give to my mum

 Estimated $150 - my hp bills including my mum hp bills too

 Estimated $150+ - sayang help to pay SP Services

$20-$50 - sayang sometimes top up PAYU

Estimated around $200+ - sayang pay his courts debt

Estimated $150 - sayang pay his hp bills including his father hp bills too

You guys see the breakdown of it? A lot of things that sayang helps around the house.. 

I mean yes if you help your family you get pahala and this and that but to me, this is too much.. 

Sometimes, i just feel like i don't need to keep savings for nikah cause everything i have to help my family for financial.. 

I am usually a good person with a good heart but now this is too much and it really disappoint me regarding my mum now.. Well now, she doesn't stood up for me anymore rather than keep on carry on what her agenda.. She says that she ONLY took care of his money but that doesn't he gives her authority to use for expenses and other expenses. Also when i asked, she keeps on saying that he got give her money. Give her money only alittle and not much..

Just imagine guys if your mum doesn't get married with the man that was living in the house together with you guys for 8 years, how would you feel? And further more, we are muslim. It's really not good. And i don't regards that man is my step father cause he is not married to my mum and will never ever will be replacing my late step father.. 

Nowadays after i reach home from work, i always in my room and lazy to face or talk to anyone.. Now, my plan with sayang is simple. Saves 2k more for our simple ever nikah, apply for house and leave. That's it! Cause seriously, i can't take it anymore of this..